A message to my best friend

Dear you know who you are,
I don't care if you see this or if you don't, but I need to say it. I love you. So much. You are the entire reason I am alive and that I still even can think. I'm sorry I hurt you, you have to believe me when I say I didn't mean to. I'm sorry I'm so insanely scared of losing you that I get jealous when I shouldn't. You need to know I trust you with my life, and the fact that I get so jealous and scared when you latch onto another girl just shows that I love you. I never want to lose you. You are worth every risk I have to take to have you. You need to know that. You need to know that I would do ANYTHING to have you back. I understand now that I made a mistake, and I would take that back in a second if I could. I will do ANYTHING, ANYTHING, to have you know that I trust you so much and I do depend on you. Please just let me show you that.

I love every inch of you,

Taylor

The End is Near

I think this is my worst time of the year for my depression and thoughts in general. It seems that in May everything ends. School ends, your hard work pays off for finals and AP tests. Dance recitals and graduation  and it all comes together in 4 short weeks. This year is going to be particularly hard for me as my friends are graduating and I'm not. I have two more years of high school and my friends are entering college as juniors because of AP tests and just being damn smart. My best friend is graduating and I don't know how I'm going to get through high school without him. He's been there literally since the beginning of my freshman year and he knows how to handle me and how to get me to just calm down some days. Not to mention Maria and Caitlyn and Catherine, both the Catherine's... Just everyone is leaving, and I feel like my life is turning into The Perks of Being a Wallflower, with all my friends leaving and my just generally getting worse...

I'm not looking forward to the next month