I had a rehearsal today with the show I've been working on, Comedy Tonight with my local theatre. I think I've started to develop a crush on a guy and oh my god I am not ok with this. He's perfect and funny and beautiful and 5 years older than me. I don't stand a chance in hell. But he notices me, and that's huge for me.
We sang a duet tonight when we went to karaoke after the rehearsal. Everyone is well over the age to legally order alcohol. And of course, I'm not, I'm still 5 years out from being able to legally order alcohol. So everyone was drunk as hell when all of the sudden, the DJ called out my name and this guys name. We did a duet. He just kept saying, "Just look at me, the crowd isn't there, it's just us." Because he knew I got bad crowd anxiety
He didn't mean anything by asking me to do the duet. I know he didn't. But... He could've done it with anyone, literally. But he asked me... I don't know. I wish I had the courage to actually ask for his number to talk to him more. I want to be his friend. I just don't know how to do that.
