Now, if you know me, I have little to no confidence in myself, the few times I believe I look even slightly decent is if I'm wearing red lipstick and a nice outfit. Other than that, I probably feel like I look like shit, and honestly I usually do. I don't put makeup on in the morning, I don't straighten my hair, I brush my hair and teeth in the morning, get dressed and run out the door. The entire getting ready process takes about 10 minutes, but because it's the morning I give myself 30, because it takes 15 minutes for me just to get out of my bed.
Now I'm not saying you NEED to do this to be pretty, hot, sexy, etc. But lately, especially in my high school, I've noticed this becoming almost a necessity in order to be noticed by males or females.
I've had a couple boyfriends in high school, me being now in my sophomore year, and I've personally had them call me cute, adorable, beautiful. And normally, unless I feel like the lowest shit in the universe, even if I don't believe it, I try to just say "Thank you". It's a compliment, why not take it? The only two terms that I try to steer away from are hot and sexy.
I'm 16. I'm still growing and developing and finding myself, all that high school jazz. Unless the situation calls for it, if a male or female, my other or not, calls me sexy or hot, I feel uncomfortable. I feel that they are referring to my body, and more importantly the areas that I'm not confident about. They are looking at the physical form of me and what I am wearing. They don't always also refer to me as a person and my personality and the way I carry myself. They refer to the things that they would see in bed.
And I don't like that. I've told the two boyfriends I've had that I despise being called hot or sexy unless the timing called for it. I will take adorable, cute, beautiful, any of those, but I don't like being called hot or sexy. I feel like I am just an object to them if that's all they can call me. And I want so much more than just being a sex object they can touch and look at. If they can call me more than that, they more than likely can see ME and my fears and personality and craziness, and I like that.
